The year 1995 found me struggling with myself; lot of unsatisfaction,
frustrations, contradictory feelings regarding my friends which made my life
unbearable, made me feel ashamed of what I felt and unable to recognize myself
because of my reactions with people.
I was in great need of an innate transformation which could be also seen
outwardly ( I always liked the proverb: "You will gather what you sow"
). I was in great need of something I could not define yet, overwhelmed with
ignorance, incapable of being alert and protect myself against the evils
attacking my peace, health, emotional and spiritual state. My attention was
directed towards spirituality as I felt a kind of relief during my short and
rare visits to a spiritual place (churches, monasterys).
Sahaja Yoga appeared as an answer to my expectations regarding spirituality.
I had the desire to open new inner horizons of my soul which I was aspiring to.
Some of my job colleagues told me about Sahaja Yoga, telling that it would help
me to reconcile with myself and it would give me the peace I was in need of, the
trust and many other things.
Generally speaking, the concept of yoga was totally strange for me, something
uninteresting composed of some acrobatic execises ..... that was all. Still the
situation I was in, made me attempt to do Sahaja Yoga. Very shy at the
beginning, suspicious, I went to the public programs in my city and to my great
surprise, after only 2 sessions, I started feeling all Sahaja Yoghis very
closed. They surrounded me with love listening patiently my long list of
problems, giving me trust and courage and advising me.
I was amazed that no money were asked for practicing Sahaja Yoga as far as
nowadays any information you get is to be payed (truly we cannot pay the TRUTH.
How much do we pay for a seed to sprout?).
After 2 months of practicing Sahaja Yoga meditations I could get rid
effortlessly of some bad habits. That was not possible for me before in spite of
my desire and struggle. At that moment I told myself: "Be patient and
continue. There is something special here." As the time was passing I
started discovering the inner beauty of the people in Sahaja Yoga colectivity.
They were special people, dignified, correct, enthusiastic, joyful, very kind
and generous with everybody. Everything was so natural to them; that could be
seen on their shinning faces. Nothing of what they did or said was superficial
or artificial and I was impressed how much kindness they were showing in spite
of the other people’s contempt and laugh. They were moral and selfless people,
having no bad habits living in a society with the moral values in a continue
degradation.
After 7 years of practising Sahaja Yoga I am now part and parcel of the
Realised souls colectivity and I feel like I was born again. Everything is due
to Sahaja Yoga which is a living process, something which can be felt and has
the power to transform any human being in a sparkling diamond, polishing each
and every side of it and making us all discover our own value.
As a Sahaja Yogi I learned what means to really love people, I learned that
love and forgiveness can remove hatred, I learned to give without expecting
anything back and moreover I felt that I am the Spirit, the eternal God’s
smile in us.
It’s a real joy to discover the Spirit into us. The ugliness inside us,
which we contemplate many times unknowingly, is washed away and the shinning
Spirit makes unseen wings be opened and carry us above the darkness of
ignorance.
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